I wrote this yesterday while I was on the train in Pittsburgh!
So I am currently on a ten hour train ride to Pittsburgh where I will then have a two hour layover until I board another train that will go to Philadelphia, my final destination. I am so tired right now and I just cannot wait to be in Philadelphia and meet my team and just start serving. I am really nervous though, I am not going to lie! I know that these next two months are going to be so difficult and trying but so rewarding. I have gotten so much encouragement from so many people for this journey and I know that as long as I do my best and pour everything into this summer and into doing what God is leading me to do. These last few days and even now, I have had a pit in my stomach because of my nerves. I’m nervous that I am not going to be prepared or be good enough for this internship which when you think about it, it’s true. I am NOT prepared and I am NOT good enough but because of Jesus, because I know this is where I am supposed to be this summer, I know that he will make sure that I am prepared and he will assure me that I am good enough. I had a mini-freakout before I left because I was just so overwhelmed with my nerves but I just put on Oceans by Hillsong and journaled and prayed and I even reread the journal entry I was writing when I most strongly felt the call to Philadelphia. Oceans is just such a perfect song for traveling to new places, for going on new journeys. “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me, take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.” Seeing that my journey with CSM started with a “trust fall,” this is just so fitting. It just pumps me up because it addresses that the new journey is scary but God will be there, He will help keep us afloat and keep us going. This line even addresses one of the benefits from trusting in Him: our faith will be made stronger. We get closer to Him in our hard times as long as we trust in Him and that He will be there to catch us when we fall. It’s moments like that that reassure me that God is real, that He has a perfect plan for us and that He is always with us. I was so calm and so sure that this is what I was supposed to be doing. Side note: at the train station in Chicago, there was this giant bird flying around inside. It scared me really badly but it was also pretty cool to see, not going to lie. So far, it hasn’t really hit me that I am not in KC anymore. All of the small towns look like the small towns in Missouri and all of the bigger cities look like Blue Springs and Independence. I think that maybe once I cross the time zone, it’ll hit me that I am somewhere else but who knows? I am just eager to get to Philadelphia and just dive in. Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make straight your paths.”
More to come from the great state of Pennsylvania!
So I am currently on a ten hour train ride to Pittsburgh where I will then have a two hour layover until I board another train that will go to Philadelphia, my final destination. I am so tired right now and I just cannot wait to be in Philadelphia and meet my team and just start serving. I am really nervous though, I am not going to lie! I know that these next two months are going to be so difficult and trying but so rewarding. I have gotten so much encouragement from so many people for this journey and I know that as long as I do my best and pour everything into this summer and into doing what God is leading me to do. These last few days and even now, I have had a pit in my stomach because of my nerves. I’m nervous that I am not going to be prepared or be good enough for this internship which when you think about it, it’s true. I am NOT prepared and I am NOT good enough but because of Jesus, because I know this is where I am supposed to be this summer, I know that he will make sure that I am prepared and he will assure me that I am good enough. I had a mini-freakout before I left because I was just so overwhelmed with my nerves but I just put on Oceans by Hillsong and journaled and prayed and I even reread the journal entry I was writing when I most strongly felt the call to Philadelphia. Oceans is just such a perfect song for traveling to new places, for going on new journeys. “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me, take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.” Seeing that my journey with CSM started with a “trust fall,” this is just so fitting. It just pumps me up because it addresses that the new journey is scary but God will be there, He will help keep us afloat and keep us going. This line even addresses one of the benefits from trusting in Him: our faith will be made stronger. We get closer to Him in our hard times as long as we trust in Him and that He will be there to catch us when we fall. It’s moments like that that reassure me that God is real, that He has a perfect plan for us and that He is always with us. I was so calm and so sure that this is what I was supposed to be doing. Side note: at the train station in Chicago, there was this giant bird flying around inside. It scared me really badly but it was also pretty cool to see, not going to lie. So far, it hasn’t really hit me that I am not in KC anymore. All of the small towns look like the small towns in Missouri and all of the bigger cities look like Blue Springs and Independence. I think that maybe once I cross the time zone, it’ll hit me that I am somewhere else but who knows? I am just eager to get to Philadelphia and just dive in. Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make straight your paths.”
More to come from the great state of Pennsylvania!